Do I Praise or Shame Myself?

I'm not sure if I should praise myself or shame myself today. My workout, if you can even call it that, was only 15 minutes long. See...we had a late night with the baby and Kenzie was content to cuddle on our bed this morning and watch The Little Mermaid while Josh, Josie and I slept some more. So we slept in and I had to run a couple errands and Josh had to shower and go to work. So I had a grand total of 15 minutes to exercise. I walked for 5 minutes, ran for 5 minutes, then walked for another 5 minutes. That's all. Is it good that I used those 15 minutes, or pathetic that I slept in and didn't exercise more?

On another note...I did 100 jumping jacks a couple days ago. I did 4 sets of 25 with 30 seconds of running in place in between. I didn't think much of it, just that it was a little heart beat booster. But yesterday I could feel it in my sides. Who knew? Ok, probably a lot of people knew, I just didn't. Lol!

Oh...and on yet another note...we're doing our monthly grocery shopping tomorrow. Usually I wander the aisles getting what I think we'll need. But tonight I planned out a bunch of mostly healthy meals, or meals that I can make healthier, and made a list. Yep, I got all organized about it. I hope this helps us eat better. We'll need a few things as the month goes along like fresh produce and milk and meat, but I can get everything else tomorrow. Yay!

Award Shows are Evil

That's right, you read that right...award shows are evil! Why you ask? Because all the actresses are like a size 0 without an ounce of fat on them. It sure doesn't help my self-esteem. Sure, I know I'll never be a size 0. I'm not even aiming for that. I'm aiming for a size 8. Very realistic goal I think. But I see these women who have the perfect body and I feel like I'm about a million pounds! Sure they have millions of dollars and trainers and that's why they're skinny. But dang it! It still stinks!

I'm Floating

I drank so much water yesterday, 100 ounces! I'm floating now, that was so much! But hey, it's a good thing. I took it easy on the exercise yesterday. I didn't do any cardio, but I did do 100 crunches. 100 must be the number for the day.

Today so far I've done 30 minutes on the treadmill, run/walk mix. We'll see what else I do.

Updating

Ok, I don't have a lot of time to write. But yesterday I did a half hour on the treadmill and tonight I did 20 minutes. Sure, they weren't massively big workouts. But they were something. I really wanted to get outside and walk today, but when I went out the weather had turned and it started to rain then snow. Bummer. But yesterday Kenzie and I did walk to the park so she could play for awhile so we got out and got some fresh air and a little walk in.

Also, I made a potato soup recipe tonight that we've made before, but tonight I made it low fat. I found some fat free half & half at the store and used that as well as using 2% milk shreds instead of full fat cheese. So the only full fat ingredient was the tablespoon of butter...but that's in the full pot, not per serving. So yay for making a recipe healthier.

Back to It!

I didn't post yesterday. Did anyone even notice? This blog is so young that I doubt it. LOL! But I felt too guilty to post. I was gone in Colorado Springs most of the day. While there we went out to eat. Oh and eat we did! Eek!

But today I did the treadmill for 60 minutes, 15 of which were spent running. I have a healthy dinner planned and I'm drinking my water. Now if only everyday could be like this. LOL!

My Body Hates Me!

I woke up with my throat feeling like it was half closed up on me. What the heck is up with that??? So when Josh was home and I should have been exercising I took a nap. I feel much better, but haven't been able to exercise yet. Right now Josie is sleeping on my lap. I think when she wakes up I'll put her in her swing and I'll use the treadmill. I'm doing so-so on water, but better than yesterday. The day is not over yet, I can do it! LOL!

At Least it Was Something

I could have done better today, but I also could have done much worse. At first my dinner was so healthy. I had lentil soup. But then Josh came home on a break from work to eat dinner and I ate some bbq wings with him. *gulp* I really shouldn't have done that. *BUT* I did use the treadmill for 30 minutes today, 10 of those minutes were spent running, the rest walking. I may still do some leg lifts or something, we'll see.

I think I'm mostly down on myself because I didn't drink as much water as I should. The past 3 days I was really good about drinking at least 64 ounces. Today...not even close. So I guess I'm going to make that my goal for now, to drink at least 64 ounces of water a day.

I need to focus on why I want to lose weight. If I do that it might stop me from snacking so much. Must repeat...don't want to be the fat mom, don't want to be the fat mom, don't want to be the fat mom...

Getting Started

I've been struggling to lose weight for awhile. Back before I got married I was never really fat. But I did have chubby times. When I was single it was easy to be a gym rat and make the weight come off. But now I'm a mom and I wouldn't change that for the world. But along with being a mom came many unwanted pounds.

After having my first daughter I got big. Like, the biggest I'd ever been. I was on a weight loss train when I got pregnant again. And once again, after the birth of my second daughter I found myself with unwanted pounds.

As of today I'm 1.5 pounds bigger than when I got pregnant with my baby. Not bad I guess considering she's 6 1/2 months old. But that means I'm still as overweight as I was when I got pregnant. So now, what do I do?

I'm starting this blog to keep myself on track. I want my pre-babies body back. I want to feel like me again.