Still alive

I haven't written over here in awhile. At first it was because I wasn't being very good diet and exercise wise. I had a lot of stress with plumbing issues and it just spiraled down from there. Then...I got pregnant. I was excited. But less than a week ago I miscarried. I go to the doctor today to follow up and hopefully will figure out when I can start exercising again. So I may be writing here more often as I focus on getting healthy again and getting pregnant again.

Two days in a row

I've been MIA. Why? Because I basically suck. Yeah, I do.

We moved. It was supposed to be a dream move, going from a crappy 800 sq ft condo to an almost 1700 sq ft house of our own. But the second day we lived here the house started falling apart. I've been so stressed and dealing with plumbing, heating, electrical and massive tree issues that I haven't exercised.

That is until 2 nights ago and I have used the treadmill for the past 2 nights. Fingers crossed I can keep this up and that our house doesn't fall apart.

Loving the Active

I know I promised to post more and I'm not really doing it. But I am keeping up with the EAS Active for Wii. I'm halfway through the 30 day challenge. Apparently the intensity is supposed to increase now. We'll see...I'm sure I can still handle it.

I'm STRUGGLING with my running though. I want to run. I make a goal to run nearly every day...then it doesn't happen. Sigh...I'm not going to make my goal of running a half marathon in December and I'm so angry at myself for it. I started out the year doing so well, didn't miss a day of running for more than a month. And then, even when I missed a day, I still kept going.

I want to win a Moving Comfort Sports Bra

The past few nights as I've been doing the EAS Active workouts I've realized just how worn out my sports bras have gotten. My husband can vouch for me...I've complained verbally about it.

Tonight I found a giveaway at A Happy Hippy Mom for a Moving Comfort sports bra. PERFECT! If you're interested in entering to win as well just click here.

Dripping in sweat

I didn't run today...but no worries, I exercised.

Last week I ordered the EA Active for Wii and it came today. I decided to give it a go instead of my run. And...holy cow, I'm exhausted! It's only about a 20 minute workout, but it had me sweating!!!

I just finished and I'm already feeling the burn!!! Now I have my husband giving it a try. He's asked me several times to help him get in shape...well, hopefully this works for him and he'll want to keep at it.

This program has a 30 day challenge and I can tell that if I just do this and don't change any other aspect of my life I'll still lose weight. BUT...I do want to run still. So my goal for tomorrow is to do both, and since my husband has the day off I should be able to do both easily.

Has anyone else tried this program?

Pushed myself

I pushed myself tonight. I forced myself to run faster...A LOT faster! I ran anywhere from 1.0 - 1.5 miles per hour faster than normal. That meant I couldn't run as far, but I sure felt it more.

BUT...I have to confess I didn't run the last two days before today. Last night I was all ready to exercise, I was in my running gear, I'd just sung to my daughter so she'd go to sleep and came out in the living room. My awesome husband had moved the LoveSac to the middle of the room and had put in Twilight. He hates chick movies like that and rarely will watch one with me. I just couldn't resist the chance to cuddle and enjoy. So I don't totally feel bad. The night before it was just friggin HOT! The girls had turned the heat on and we didn't discover that for awhile, plus it was a SUPER hot day and it was just so uncomfortable. I know that's a lame excuse, but I was just so sluggish with the heat.

Anyway...I'm trying and I felt really good about how I ran tonight.

I did it!

It took me all freakin' day...but I finally did a run at about 10pm tonight...err...I guess last night now. I was all dressed and ready to do it earlier. I planned to hop on the treadmill the second my husband got home from work so I could squeeze it in before dinner.

Then...I got a call from my husband. We put an offer on a house late last week...we've been dying to hear back. Today (yesterday...whatever), we heard back and they counter offered. We liked the offer and accepted it. So...

I had to ditch the running gear and change into nicer clothes to meet with the Realtor when my husband got home. Then we were running behind on dinner and I still had to do school with my daughter (I'm doing a homeschool preschool with her this year because she isn't "high risk" so she didn't get into the school run...and only...preschool in our area).

The night got away from me...but I did it. Four out of 5 days so far this month. Not bad, not bad. Gotta keep it up...

Crud...it's after midnight again and I'm still up...I will get more sleep, I will. I know that's important to health too...I'm just NOT good at it.

Up too late...but need to blog

Ok, so I promised I was going to blog more...and I meant it, I really did.

So...I skipped running on Sunday. I broke my pledge to run everyday. BUT...I don't feel guilty about skipping Sundays. It's that whole day of rest thing. But I also don't feel guilty if I do run on Sundays. So yeah...anyway, I did run Monday and Tuesday. It's about 40 minutes into Wednesday and I really need to go to bed so I'm not too tired to run today. No need to give myself lame excuses.

I WILL DO THIS!

I did run...

Yep I did...I really did run today...not a long run, but a run none the less. :)

So it's August, huh?

My commitment to the treadmill begins today. I'm not going to hop on right this minute, it's a quarter after midnight after all. But I have plans...BIG PLANS to make it my new best friend. I already talked to my husband and told him I needed to go for a run on it as soon as he gets home from work. I'll be also trying to blog several times a week so I feel accountable for my actions.

Fingers crossed I can do this, I've done stuff like this before and it's worked...time to do it again.

A new commitment?

I'm making a new commitment? Is that really allowed? I sure hope so.

I've been on vacation for about 2 weeks. Those 2 weeks I haven't eaten well and I'm feeling so dang down about myself it's not even funny.

So...what do I do? Well, for starters I'm making a commitment to eat right, not eat out much really at all, to cut out most if not all soda, to run every single day in August without fail...and then carry that into September and beyond. I'm dusting off the Wii Fit and am going to become a pro at the hula hoop game. I'm also going to commit...starting August 1st to write on this blog more. July is nuts with a little more travel and my mom visiting, but August is going to be boring and I'll have time to write.

So here it is...I am going to do this!!!

Four miles

I've been a pretty big slacker when it comes to writing on this blog. I've struggled to get into an exercise groove since we moved. I have no excuses, I just suck. BUT...I have been getting back to running and even ran 4 miles today and I did the Wii Fit for about half an hour. So I'm getting there.

Moving Pains

I haven't exercised in a week. I actually went to the gym for a bit the morning we moved (last Friday). But since then I've been so busy unpacking and setting up that I haven't exercised. Sigh...my treadmill is a little buried, but I should have it uncovered by tomorrow night. Fingers crossed!

No more gym membership now that we've moved, this is really going to test my willpower to get all my exercise done at home. Wish me luck!

I'm swimming...

Ok, not literally. But I swear with all the water I've been drinking I should be swimming in it by now.

That's all.

Nothing Tastes as Good as Being Thing Feels

Yeah...that's what I've heard. But really, it's been so long (going on 5 years) since I was thin that I don't even remember what it feels like. Sigh...

Even though I don't remember what it feels like I'm living off that motto today and hopefully for many days to come. It's 3:41pm and I haven't had a single snack today. I ate a serving of Special K Vanilla Almond Crunch cereal with 1% milk (wish it were skim, but the stupid store in town doesn't sell it) for breakfast and for lunch I had tuna with mustard & dill pickle relish on whole wheat bread. And I've pretty much drank my weight in water again.

Fingers crossed I keep it up. My husband will be home from work in a little over an hour and I'll be leaving for the gym the second he walks in the door. I can do this!

How'd I do today?

I wish I could say I did a long, awesome, amazing, [insert adjective of choice here] run today. But that would be a big, fat lie! I ran 1.25 miles. I increased my speed by .2, but still, that's a pathetic run. I went for a walk outside too, but I didn't even break a sweat so that hardly counts as exercise.

I did just about drink my weight in water though. That's something else I've been working on. I need to drink less diet soda, so I've been trying to drink water.

Tomorrow I have things all planned out. I'm feeding my daughters sandwiches for dinner so they can eat as soon as my husband gets home and I can go to the gym. When I get home I'll make stir-fry chicken and veggies for us. Then after the girls are in bed I'm going to run. I will make tomorrow a better day! I will dang it!

Oh...and if you've seen my motivation, send it home. I miss it.

Um...yeah...what's up?

I've been feeling a HUGE sense of guilt over weight lately. I guess that's why I haven't posted lately. But really, I guess that means I should've been posting even more.

I still, after more than a month, haven't gotten my running back up to what it was before I left on vacation. I pretty much hate myself for that. I make up LAME excuses too.

I ran 3 miles during part of The Biggest Loser finale (don't get me started on that one...gah!). That's the longest run I've done since I got home. I was running more than 4 miles before we left. *hanging head in shame* I ran a mile tonight. My lame excuse for not running more? I wanted to watch a dvd with my husband and besides I was at the gym earlier. Dumb!

So...tomorrow, I'm hoping I don't give myself a lame excuse and I run more so I can proudly post.

Owie, owie, owie!!!!!

My trainer continues to kick my rear! Laughing, coughing, moving at all...that all hurts! My abs are in agony! Lol! I only have four more sessions with her before we move. Then I'm on my own. She's working with me to have a routine I can do at home with the equipment I have (or will get). So it's all 3, 5 and 10 pounds dumbbells, an exercise ball, a medicine ball and resistance bands (that last one is the only thing I don't have yet). Add my treadmill for cardio and that's all I'll have come May 29th. I'll miss the weight machines, the elliptical and the bikes. But I won't miss paying for a gym membership and a trainer. Money is tight!

I haven't done the Wii Fit in forever. I know, I used to sing it's praises, but for some reason I stopped doing it. So I think I'll be adding that back in once we move.

As for The Biggest Loser...I think they, once again, made a bad decision! Sure, Filipe is a WAY bigger threat than Ron. I get that. BUT...if they had kept Filipe they would've had more motivation to work hard before the finale. I mean seriously, with Ron in the final four I'd have moments thinking, "well...I know I can beat Ron so I'll take it easier today" but with Filipe I'd be like, "gotta get to the gym, gotta beat Filipe." So yeah...way to take the easy way out and send home the guy that deserves to be there. Wussies!!!

Ouch...ouch...ouch!!!!

My trainer kicked my butt...er, my arms yesterday! Owie! But it's a good pain...right? ;)

Ron is HORRIBLE!

I'm hopelessly addicted to The Biggest Loser and I was literally yelling at the t.v. tonight. Ron is a lying IDIOT! First he's a scumbag who betrays Kristin then when asked if he knew his son was going to vote that way he said, "No." What-freaking-ever! It's all on t.v. you moronic butt! Did you think just because you whispered that the cameras and recording equipment wouldn't catch it? Are you really that lame? Yep, I guess you are! I'd like to be happy for you that you are under 300 pounds, but geez, you're such a jerk that I'm totally not happy for you and now I don't like your son either. Tara will beat him! She's the woman, she kicks everyone's rear and deserves to win because she, unlike you and your son, is HONEST!

I dared get on the scale...

Why I did it, I don't know. But I dared the scale. I only gained a couple pounds on vacation. Phew! Big sigh of relief...now to get serious and lose those couple pounds and a whole bunch more!

I'm alive!!!!!!

Ok, so I went out of town and I wasn't as good on my diet as I should have been and I only exercised 3 times in the 13 days I was gone and I feel like a big fat cow. Gah!

Yesterday I hit the gym for more than an hour plus did a mile run on the treadmill at home to get back into the groove of things. I have BIG plans to do even more today. Fingers crossed I didn't do too much damage while I was gone...I'm scared to step on the scale.

Old...old...old

I braved the ice and cold and went to the gym after my husband got home from work tonight. It's usually pretty dead there on Friday nights, but there were more than half a dozen cars parked outside. I was bummed, I really like having the place to myself...yeah, I'm selfish that way.

Every single person there was in high school. There were about a dozen or so kids there playing basketball. I felt so old! For about half an hour of the 65 minutes I was there an old guy came and did some weights. But other than that I was the grannie in gym. I bet I was twice the age of at least one of those kids. Seriously, they would all have been born in the 90s...the 90s! I have friends with kids born in the 90s...and these are friends who are my age! I was born in the 70s, that means there was an entire decade in between, I'm so old! I felt like I should've been walking out of there with a walker.

I totally like going in the mornings better...no teenagers then.

This can't be good

We were at the store tonight and happened to walk by the ice cream selection. I'm so used to not seeing my favorite flavor, but it was there. They actually had it, my beloved Ben & Jerry's Cake Batter ice cream. This is only the second time I've seen it since our tour of Ben & Jerry's in Vermont last April. It was that day, when on the tour it was the free sample flavor that I began my love affair with it. It's not a frequent love affair since I never find it. But tonight I did and now there are 2 pints of it in my freezer.

Oh yeah...and the Easter candy is out and there are 2 bags of Starburst jelly beans on my counter.

Crap, crap, crap!!!!!!! Where is my willpower?

If they can do it, I can do it

I was so inspired by The Biggest Loser last night. They all (well, except one) ran a half marathon. Just out of nowhere they were told to do it. And they did. Seriously, if they can do it so can I! When running gets hard I have to remember them running. They all weigh more than me and they did it, my weight is no excuse.

In a related note, I ran 4.25 miles today. That's my longest run so far this year. :)

Pre-baby weight...oh yeah!

That's right...I'm .4 pounds below my pre-baby weight with my youngest. No matter that I have a LONG way to go until my pre-baby weight for my oldest. I'll bask in the glow of this smaller milestone.

Double digits!!!

The scale made me very happy this morning. Sure, I'm still way heavier than I'd like to be, but as of today I've lost 10.2 pounds in 2009!!!!!! That's double digits!!!! Yay! In .9 pounds I'll be at my pre-baby weight for my second child. I'm still way far from my pre-baby weight with my first daughter, but I've got to hit the little milestones before I hit the big ones. :)

Bye bye Las Vegas

I've been looking forward to running the Las Vegas Half-Marathon at the end of the year. But as I look at the numbers in terms of money, I just can't make it work. It's too darn expensive for a family of four to go there with our salary right now. Sigh...

BUT, I'm not giving up on running a half-marathon this year. I did some checking and there are TWO of them later this year that I might be able to get ready for. One is in September, just four days before my 31st birthday and the other is four weeks after that in October. I can't remember which is which, but one is in Denver and the other in Boulder. So, I might have to start working a little harder so I can be ready sooner. It seems there's one in Pueblo the same weekend as the Las Vegas one, but they're not releasing details for it until September. I wish I could find out more about it now. It would be the most ideal one. In less than 12 weeks we'll be living about 20 minutes from Pueblo...so lodging would be free and travel costs would just be the gas to drive up there.

My run today was pretty pathetic. I didn't get started on exercise until too late in the day. After 80 minutes at the gym plus walking there and back, I only had time to run a mile before my husband had to go to work and I had to go pick up our oldest from preschool. But at least I got some running in today.

Sick, sick, sick

I got so sick this morning at the gym. After working out hard for an hour I was walking out of the gym when I got hit with nausea and I felt like I was going to either pass out or throw up. It was crappy! But I survived and my trainer gave me a ride home (it's only about 4 blocks or so) since I walked. I don't know what's wrong with me, but I'm all good now.

And...I'm down another pound!!! I know the other day it was just .1, but in the 2 days since then I'm down a whole pound! I'm at 9.9 gone so far in 2009. Yay!!!

Grrr...

Now I can't see my posts on this blog. I saw this happen on my other blog and on another person's blog. Come on Blogger...what's going on???

.1 that's all

I should be disappointed, but I'm really not. In the past 2 weeks I've lost all of .1 pounds. Yep...just .1, sigh...

But, I was sick, I haven't been eating quite as well as I should and so I was happy to see the scale down .1 today. I hadn't weighed myself in about a week and I was scared to step on the scale today after how I've been lately. But yay, it was down...just not much, lol!

That's too bad

I had found the blog of The Biggest Loser contestant Dane's wife. I enjoyed reading it after the show each week. Then today as I was blog surfing I found a commentary on this past week's show. I was totally bummed when Dane was voted off, but was proud to see he'd ran a marathon. But this blog was saying he didn't complete it and gave a link to a story. It looks like he only ran 23 miles of it, but the show reported he ran it all. While I agree the show should've been honest about how much he ran and whatnot, I hate that people are jumping on he and his wife saying they're not honest LDS people. It's TV people, he probably signed something and never expected he would have to hide details like this. TV is inherently dishonest. But I doubt Dane and his wife are really dishonest. Give them a break! Good grief! The man lost 100 pounds in 8 weeks...amazing! Oh...and now their blog is open to only invited readers and since I don't know them I'm of course not one of those readers. Sigh...why do people have to be so rude to them? Geez!

Maintaining

So, I haven't had the most successful week in weight loss. But at least I'm not gaining. I've had some "slackerish" days this week due to a billion different reasons. It's time to step things back up, dang it!

Tight, tight, tight

Ok, so I've had this pair of jeans for awhile. They're miss sized or something, because all other pants this size fit me very loosely. This pair, up until today, were so tight I couldn't even button them. Well...today I can zip them. They're still tight, but they're zipped and buttoned. Here's my goal...I want them to be loose by the end of March. Think I can do it?

Made my night!!!

I ran a quick errand to a little convenience store in town tonight. This is a really small town so everyone recognizes everyone else, even if we don't really know them. But I'm in the minority not knowing everyone, most people know everyone here because they grew up here and they know who I am because I'm the wife of the only state trooper that lives in the county...and a lot of them don't exactly like him, so I keep to myself. The woman behind the counter has seen me in there on several occasions, but she doesn't really know me. But...when I walked up to the counter she said, "Are you losing weight? You look great!" That totally made my night. My husband says he can tell, but he knows I'm trying. This woman had no idea and noticed. :)

Still in the new "decade"

I'm now a full pound into this new "decade" of numbers. I've lost 8.1 pounds since January 5, 2009. Yay!!!

Did you hear that???

Seriously, did you hear that or was it just in my head? I swear I heard a loud "YES!" this morning when I weighed myself. I know I was going to wait a day or two more before weighing myself again, but I gave in today and I was down!!! But not just that, I'm in a new "decade" of numbers or set of 10s or whatever you want to call it. I'm so happy! I've been stuck in this "decade" since sometime in August. I was beginning to think my scale didn't know how to go down to a new "decade," but apparently it does. I'm so happy!!!!!! I'm only .2 into this "decade," I'm going to have to work my butt off to make sure I don't go up again.

Speaking of which, I hope I worked a little of my butt off this morning. I did a 2 hour workout at the gym, both weights and cardio. Then I came home and did my run (45 minutes) on the treadmill. I was DEAD afterward, but dang I feel good about myself today!

I'm still here...

I'm still around. I've just been busy. I'm not doing a weigh in this week until Friday or Saturday, I just don't think I'd like what I see...you know, those few days a month where the fairer sex tends to gain lame water weight. LOL! But I'm doing ok. I took one day off from the gym and two days off from running. On Thursday my trainer kicked my can at the gym and I could barely walk on Friday. That's the day I took off from both, but I did walk all over the Denver Zoo for a couple hours, so I wasn't totally sedintary. Tomorrow I have a goal to run 2 1/2 miles. I think I might wait to do it until The Biggest Loser starts. That should distract me enough to do it...plus the baby goes to bed at 7pm and my older daughter is good about staying away from the treadmill when either my husband or I are on it so it's the perfect time, right? I have a gym appointment in the morning too, so it's going to be an exhausting day.

Now...someone come take the M&M's away...gah!

Woot!

Today I did an official weigh in for the Biggest Loser competition I'm doing. Since January 5th I've lost 6.1 pounds!!!! That's .1 less than yesterday, but .1 is nothing, I'll lose that plus some this week...at least that's the goal. I've been stuck in a rut for so long...I'm so glad the scale is moving, so very, very, very, very glad!

Just want to say...

I've lost .4 more pounds. I'm so excited the scale is finally going down, even if it is just a little bit. That's all.

1.5 more gone!

I've lost 1.5 more pounds in the last couple days. Yesterday it was 1.6, but this morning I'd gained .1...no biggie. I've already done over 2 hours of cardio today, so hopefully it will go back down tomorrow. But I'm excited. If I lose 3.6 more pounds I'll be in a new "decade" of numbers. I've been stuck in this "decade" for so long. I want that second number on the scale to be different. I'm working my tail off to get there. And then hopefully this next "decade" won't take so long to get through.

Three weeks...2.1 pounds

My weight is ever so slowly creeping off. Three weeks ago I started a Biggest Loser challenge on a mommy forum I belong to. In that time I've lost 2.1 pounds (that's as of this morning). It's better than nothing, but dang it, I'm working my rear off...and apparently not literally. But I'm happy it's going down. I've been stuck around the same number for months and months and I'm ready to never see that number again.

When I run tonight it will be my 28th day in a row. I'm up to 2 1/4 miles a day. For some reason the first mile or so kills me, then after that I'm just fine. So I just have to push through that mile because I know I'll be fine after that.

Background problem

My background was from Cutest Blog on the Block and apparently they've put too much on their Photobucket. I'm working on fixing it. Sorry for the ugly Photobucket thing in the middle of my page. Gah!

***UPDATE***
I couldn't find my old background on their site anymore. :( So I chose one of the Valentine ones. I'm not sure how long it will work for. Now I'm nervous.

.3

I know it's stupid to get excited about such a small loss. But the scale was down .3 this morning and I haven't seen it go down all week. I've literally worked out like a mad woman this week. Yesterday I did 1 hour and 45 minutes of hard cardio and that was the lightest/least amount of time I've done all week. So when I saw the scale budge, even that tiny amount, I was stoked!

My whole body hurts!

I forgot to mention that my goal this week was to exercise at least 2 hours a day during the 5 days my husband has off and do at least my run if not more on the days he does work. Well, today was his fourth of those five days off and I've met my goal each day. So now...I HURT!!! LOL! I'm not sure there's a part of me that doesn't hurt. I mean, maybe my left pinkie is ok, but seriously I just ache. Tomorrow I have to do it again, I want to make my goal. I'm meeting with my trainer in the morning, then I think I'll stay and do the elliptical for a bit. Once I get home I'll hop on the treadmill to get my run in (day 24 in row) and will have all my exercise done early in the day. At least that's the goal.

I'm pretty proud of myself today. On Tuesday I was supposed to up my run to 1.75 miles, but Monday night I decided to see if I could do it early and I did. So now I was supposed to wait until next week to up my run to 2 miles, but...well, I was at 1.75 miles and felt like I could do more. Sure, I was dying, but not dead. So I pushed on and ran the two miles. Then I took the baby for a walk on the walking path around the park while my husband took our other daughter to the park (we had a rare 70+ degree day here). After that I changed clothes and went to the gym. I spent about 10 minutes on the bikes and 60 minutes on the elliptical. It was a GOOD exercise day.

Complete Frustration

I'm so frustrated! You hear that if you eat well and exercise you'll be healthy and lose weight. But you know what? That isn't working for me. On August 1, 2008 I started being very careful about exercising and watching what I eat. Sure, I messed up during the holidays a bit...but I didn't gain over the holidays either. But my weight won't drop. I'm about 4 or 5 pounds down from August 1st, but that's it. I've been playing around this number for months upon months.

I've been running for 21 days, today will be day 22 and that hasn't made a difference. I'm not giving up, I want to run the half-marathon in December. But dang it...I don't know what to do.

My trainer called last night and she's ready to get working again. So I'm meeting with her today. But even those workout weren't making me lose any weight before.

I feel like crying all the time. I feel ugly. I feel fat. My husband says I'm beautiful, but he's blind...not literally. I see others lose weight so easily while I can't. What's wrong with my body???

21 days...I did it!

I got my run in early today. I've made it 21 days in a row. I even upped my run today by a quarter mile. I wasn't supposed to do that until tomorrow. I'm not sure what possessed me to do it, but I'm glad I did. Now I'm not filled with dread before doing tomorrow's run.

I wish I could say after 21 days that I'm enjoying this. I'm so not...at least not yet. But it is getting easier and that's awesome! I was hoping to try a run outside today, but we're having massive wind. Sigh...hopefully the "heat" (61 degrees) will stay and the wind will go so I can try an outside run sometime this week.

Getting easier

All I can say is...HOLY CRAP! It's getting easier!!! The past two nights I haven't felt like dying while I ran. Yay!!!!!!!!!

I did it, but it's not a habit yet...

So I did my 1.5 mile run tonight. Today was day 15, also the first day of 1.5 miles. But it's still not a habit. I can just tell. Right now it's something I'm forcing myself to do, but it's not easy. So I decided to look up how many days of doing something equals a habit. In that lovely Google search I found this blog, 21 Days. I haven't taken the time to really read much of it yet. Seriously, I just did this search and it's after 1am. I'll look around more, just let me get some sleep first. This whole staying up way too late thing can't be good for my health. Anyway, it's about someone who set out to make running a habit in 21 days. Now she's running race after race. How dang cool is that???

So, I guess that means I'm 6 days away from running being a habit. That's not too bad, right? That would mean by the time I watch next week's The Biggest Loser (don't get me started on tonight's episode...gah!) running will be a habit.

Oh...and I'm not just taking the above mentioned blogger's word that 21 days makes a habit. Nope, I also found it at D*I*Y Planner among other places. Of course, most of those were blogs. But come on, bloggers know all...right? Ok, maybe not. But I'm taking their word for it this time.

D.R.E.A.D.

I'm so filled with dread right now. Tomorrow is my last day of running 1.25 miles, then it's up to 1.5 miles a day. I so do not feel ready for it. Sure, I know I won't die. But my 5'8 body is carrying way too much excess baggage for this to be easy yet. I used to love running...right now I so do not love it. I'm pretty sure that love will come as some of this baggage goes, but dang it 1.5 miles sounds HARD right now. I'll do it, I have to do it. If I don't I'll only be disappointing myself and I don't like being disappointed.

On a happier note...I got my running done for today about half and hour ago. Yay me!

Note to self...

Don't procrastinate your running until 11:30pm when you have to get up early the next morning to get your run in before going out of town.

Yeah...I did that. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

I was so tired this morning! I still ran, but I will never do that again! My legs are sore for awhile after I run. But after this morning's run I was dying!!! I feel like a wuss, but I've got to start somewhere, right?

But it's kind of nice tonight that my run is already done. The girls and I are just chillin' at a hotel while my husband does a ride along with a trooper in his future troop (only about 7 1/2 more months until we move here!!!). The girls refuse to sleep, but I'm pretty happy just surfing online.

1.25

Yep, I'm up to running 1.25 miles at a time. I'm still a big old wussy, but I'm getting better. I've figured out that I have to add a quarter mile each week if I want to be ready for 13.1 miles the first week of December. I think that's totally doable.

By the way, today will be my 10th day in a row of running. I'm pretty darn proud of myself! And yes, the iPod Nano totally helps. I'm still completely loving it! I know they're expensive, but if you can get any kind of MP3 player I'd totally suggest it. It distracts me enough to push me to keep going.

And I've decided Paramore is a great band to add to my list. I put the Twilight soundtrack on mine and there are two Paramore songs on there. Then I was talking to a PR rep I work with and he suggested another Paramore song...totally good, I need to see if iTunes sells it.

My new iPod tunes

Ok, this post is for MizFit, who by the way is an amazing blogger who gets more than 100 comments on like every post. And you know what? She takes time to comment on my lowly weight loss blog. I seriously feel honored that I'm being noticed and encouraged! Go read mizfitonline.com...now...er...well, after you read this post. LOL!

I've been playing with my fun new toy. It's shiny blue and I LOVE IT!!!! So, what am I stocking it full of? Well, we downloaded (uploaded?) all the tunes from my husbands old school iPod. I need to go through and take things off. I love the man, but good gosh we have totally different tastes in music most of the time.

I did buy 5 brand spankin' new songs from the iTunes store. Now, four of the five are not songs or artists I normally listen to. I'm more of a mellow Dave Matthews, Jason Mraz, Jack Johnson, John Mayer, etc. type. For those who know me that probably seems strange because I'm so not mellow and laid back like the music these guys sing. I'm probably one of the most uptight, rigid, anal, obsessive people around. My poor husband...but luckily for me he's the most laid back, awesome, amazing man I know. So he balances me out. Anyway, I digress...I like laid back music. But I wanted this iPod as a fitness help to get me motivated, get me moving and get me distracted from the fact that I'm indeed torturing my body.

So I've been paying attention to what's on Sirius radio. Why Sirius? Because out here in boonie land we only have one radio station and it alternates between country (and not the good country) and the farm report...and it doesn't even come in clearly. So, I feel totally out of touch with current music trends. So anyway, I'm getting so off topic tonight...must got to bed soon...I've been listening to The Pulse and whatnot on Sirius and I picked a few songs from there.

And finally, tenish years after I started this darn post, here's what I bought:

Keeps Gettin' Better by Christina Aguilera
Womanizer by Britney Spears
So What by Pink
SexyBack by Justin Timberlake
and
I'm Yours by Jason Mraz (yes, I had to get one that's purely my style...and this is the cell phone ring I have when my husband calls, I love this song)

I also put on the Dookie album from Green Day. I had to...it's my 10th grade running soundtrack, I just had to do it. I have more Green Day on there from their album that came out a few years ago...it's actually one album my husband and I both like.

I have some Dropkick Murphy's on there...hello, I'm a Boston Red Sox fan, I freaking love those guys! Tessie, the song dedicated to the 2004 World Champion Red Sox, is my cell phone ring for anyone besides my husband who calls. They are a must have.

I have some Plain White T's on there, some Metallica, some Cake...I need to get some Pearl Jam. But really I need more songs like the ones I downloaded tonight. They really did make my run easier. Part of it might be that I'm getting used to running, but seriously, it was easier than last night and I think it's because I was distracted listening to the upbeat tunes.

Any suggestions?

So I joined a Biggest Loser Challenge

I belong to a mommy forum online and they've done Biggest Loser challenges before and I've participated. But I tend to only lose a few pounds, everyone kind of drops off and I lose the motivation to keep going. They're starting a new one today. I kept going back and forth trying to decide if I wanted to do it. It's only $5, so money wasn't the issue. But with the half-marathon that I'm training for I wasn't sure I needed this too.

Last night they cut off entries, so I thought ok, I missed it so I just won't do it. No biggie. Then today a girl was begging to join, she had to get a few more people to join so the teams would be even. If enough people agreed to join then she could do it. A few more joined, they only needed one more. Another girl was thinking about it...but they needed a person ASAP, so I decided it was a "sign" and I joined.

We'll see how I do. I want to succeed. I hate having to take pictures on the scale. It's like admitting to my fatness. But I guess I need that. I am working, I am trying...so I refuse to be the weak link in the team. Hopefully our team won't have a weak link and we'll win!

Also...MY iPOD CAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to figure out how to get music on it, but it's here, it's here, it's here!!!!!!

Progress...and more

Today was my sixth day in a row of running. I'm still only running a mile at a time, but after tomorrow I plan to add a little bit. But I feel really good about myself. It's hard for me though, I just want to be able to do more now, but the whole logical side of me knows I have to do it bit by bit or I'll fail.

I can't wait for my iPod Nano to show up though (maybe tomorrow!!!), I think being distracted by music will really help. I'm trying to figure out what music to put on there. Back in 9th and 10th grade I listened to the Wayne's World soundtrack and Green Day's Dookie album while I ran. I know those are really odd choices, but I think I might put them on there just for sentimental reasons. LOL!

On a new note...I'm so excited for the new season of The Biggest Loser to start this week!!! I need the motivation from it. :)

I think I'm being tested

Meeting with a trainer a couple times a week has been helping me stay consistent with going to the gym. She makes me do the stuff I hate, but need to do. She's been talking about a major surgery she has coming up, but it was supposed to be in March. This morning she told me she got a call and it's been changed to Wednesday. Yeah, like in less than a week. Eek! So without warning I have no trainer for 2 to 6 weeks. Sure, I know this is way worse for her. She's been in tears over it. This isn't a fun surgery and it's not optional either. She's only 29 and this is something that you usually hear about in much older people. I'm not totally insensitive, I feel terrible for her and I totally understand her needing to rest.

But this is definitely a test for me to see if I can keep going. I think my new goal will definitely help. I ran again tonight, plus I did have that last training session this morning and I did the Wii Fit. My whole body is yelling at me right now. It hurts...a lot.

Good luck to my trainer with her recovery and good luck to me and my test of diligence!

I improved my time

I was so proud of myself yesterday morning. I got up early enough to run before we headed out to Colorado Springs for a fun little overnight getaway with our daughters. I improved my mile run time by 1 minute and 1 second, so I did it in 12 minutes and 17 seconds.

The bad news...I ate crap while we were gone. We had pizza and diet soda and ice cream and caramel apples. It was BAD! So then tonight...I didn't perform as well. I still beat my time from a couple days ago, but I just finished running and it took me 12 minutes 50 seconds to do a mile. I guess I'm paying the price for all my bad eating yesterday.

I repented today...mostly. I had light yogurt for breakfast from the hotel breakfast bar. My husband and I shared an 8 piece chicken nugget thing from Chick-Fil-A...not at all healthy, but we only had 4 pieces each, so not terrible, but I know it wasn't the best snack in the world. We got Jamba Juices...not the big ones...for lunch. For dinner I made a vegetable and chicken stir-fry with brown rice. Totally healthy! :)

My husband has decided he needs to lose weight and wants me to make him go to the gym. So as soon as we got back from Colorado Springs I sent him off...and he actually went! Then he came home and did the Wii Fit while I made dinner, our 3 1/2 year old did it too (so cute!). I didn't do it tonight, but I will tomorrow. I have an appointment with my trainer at 8am so I didn't want to overdo it tonight or I'd suck it up in the morning. But tomorrow should be a great exercise day. Training in the morning, running at some point and then the Wii Fit (because it's so darn fun).