And it starts...

I really had to talk myself into it tonight, but I did it. I started running. I guess technically I ran twice today since part of my training session at the gym this morning included running laps around the racquetball court. But I don't count that.

My goal was to see how long it would take me to run a mile. I'm not fast...very, very not fast. (I don't want to call myself slow) But it took me 13 minutes and 18 seconds. My next goal is to improve that time. I can tell running will be good. I started with a five minute walking warm up, then I ran my mile then cooled down for the next minute and 42 seconds. In that 20 minutes I was sweating way more than I did during an 80 minute training session in the morning doing all sorts of stuff from biking to elliptical to push-ups and ab work. The hula hoop I did on the Wii got me sweating too...but not as much. So all in all I had an active day, but I really think the running was the best part.

If I don't write tomorrow I just want to say...Happy New Year!!! May 2009 be a year of great change!

I've made an executive decision

Ok, so I figure I'm the CEO of my life and my health and it's time I made some changes. I've been working my rear off (I wish literally) and nothing is working. The one thing that has always worked is running.

I love running...really I do. But it's one of those things that when I stop doing it I stop liking it and it's hard to get back into.

But I need to do something...so...I've decided I'm going to run the Las Vegas Half-Marathon. I ran it in 2002...so I know it's possible. I was doing some research tonight and it's changed since then. It's been sold and is in December instead of January/February. It runs through the strip instead of out in the boonies outside of town (sounds like a cool change). So I have just over 11 months to whip my rear (literally) into shape to do this.

I'm hoping with a goal in mind that I can do it. It's not a goal to lose 40 pounds or drop a dress size. It's a goal to be strong enough, to get enough endurance to do this. Hopefully all the other stuff will come along with it.

At the same time I'm still going to workout with a trainer, I'm still going to use the elliptical and bike, I'm still going to use the Wii Fit, etc. But now I'm going to run and it will be my main focus.

Maintaining

I really need to start writing more. I'm sure it would help me. But it's the holidays and I think subconsciously I don't want to be good. But I really do. I haven't gained over the holidays, so that's good. I've been logging extra time at the gym and on the Wii Fit to make up for the cookies, ice cream and mashed potatoes and gravy I've been eating.

Then there's a day like today...not good! My daughter has croup, and this day has been all about her. We took her to the doctor's office, we ended up going to the hospital for neck x-rays because she wouldn't swallow and was just letting her spit pool in her mouth then she would drool it out like crazy. They were worried she had something worse. We had to drive 40 miles to get to a pharmacy to get her medication and then I had to make dinner and she just wanted to cuddle. She only drank juice, didn't touch a bite of food. So I cuddled with her until bedtime. I never got to the gym and now I'm so exhausted (I was up more times than I can count last night because of my daughter's sickness). Today I'll probably log a gain...oh well. She's totally worth it, so I don't regret it. I just wish I'd eaten better. With all the go, go, go I so didn't eat well.

I'm Down

I'm down and not just a little bit. No, I'm not talking about my weight...I wish (stupid monthly visitor always messes that up). But yesterday I got the blood test results from my second thyroid test. It turns out the dose they've been giving me is too high and I have to go down to the next lowest dose...which is the lowest possible dose.

Why would this get me down? Doesn't it mean my body isn't as messed up?

NO! It means I have no idea why my body is holding on to this stupid weight! I exercise every freaking day...EVERY DAY! In the past four and a half months, since I started working out so much, I am about 5 pounds down. I've gone up and down with those same stupid pounds. Sure, the Wii Fit brought them down since they'd gone up. But gosh dang it, I was hoping my thyroid was the key, the piece keeping me from finding results. But nope, now I just have a messed up body that wants to be fat.

I don't know what to do. I seriously exercise every day, usually for more than an hour. Yesterday was for THREE hours. Yes, three. I went to the gym in the morning for an hour and a half with a trainer. Then while dinner was in the oven and my husband was watching the girls I went back for half an hour, then after the girls were in bed I did the Wii Fit for an hour. Today was only a little over an hour, 51 minutes on the Wii Fit and 10 minutes of ab work. Shouldn't I see results if I'm doing this so often???

The doctor said I must be gaining muscle...you know what I say to that??? B.S.!!!!! My clothes still fit the same, my body is still squishy. Muscle my rear end! My body HATES me!!!!!!!!

You know what's not fair? I'm not looking to be sickly skinny. I just want to be a size 8 or even a 10 and I'd be happy. I have a TON of clothes in those sizes from before I had my 2 beautiful daughters. It shouldn't be this hard...I'm putting forth the effort, where are my results???

Sorry, I'm really bummed. I feel lost. I feel frustrated. I feel helpless. I really don't know what to do...

That's what I call dedication

I got up at 7:30 this morning to meet my trainer at the gym. It was 0 degrees outside...ZERO!!! Yet I still went and worked out for an hour and a half. Oh yeah, I'm dedicated!

And...I'm so excited for the Biggest Loser finale tonight!!! I don't want Vicky to win, I don't want Heba to win, I don't want Ed to win...hehehe...can you tell who I want to win. Geez though, I was so tempted to vote for Ed to be in the final 3 since they begged for Heba to be in, I like him better than her, why can't he want this for himself? But I'm nice and just didn't vote. We'll see how others feel.

Does anyone know when the next season starts? I need this weekly motivation, I LOVE this show!!!

See ya later pounds!

Ok, so I've been using the Wii for a little less than 2 weeks and I've already lost a few pounds. Yay! I'll be singing this thing's praises for a long time if it keeps up. My husband is pretty happy too. He's lost a little and all the yoga and whatnot has helped his back. It's been hurting him for awhile and now it rarely does and he's pretty sure it's because of the Wii.

My abs are currently in that good kind of hurt right now, but not because of the Wii. I'm still meeting with a trainer every so often and she killed my abs on Friday. I LOVE it! LOL!

I joined the Wii Fit Mommiis the other day, but then they disappeared? I'm so confused. There was a message board and a blog and now it's all gone. :( I'm hoping it comes back, but I'm not gonna hold my breath. Sigh...

Did you know...?

Did you know if you're right handed your left leg is stronger and vice versa? I just learned that...and I've been noticing during leg exercises that it's true for me. Weird!

Wii Fit Rocks!

Ok, so now I've had time to work with the Wii Fit and it's so dang fun! Seriously, best (early) Christmas present ever!

My weight is more maintaining right now than anything. It's totally frustrating! I'm really trying though and I just know it's going to start going down again. Especially with all the strength training I've been doing both at the gym and on the Wii Fit.