I'm swimming...

Ok, not literally. But I swear with all the water I've been drinking I should be swimming in it by now.

That's all.

Nothing Tastes as Good as Being Thing Feels

Yeah...that's what I've heard. But really, it's been so long (going on 5 years) since I was thin that I don't even remember what it feels like. Sigh...

Even though I don't remember what it feels like I'm living off that motto today and hopefully for many days to come. It's 3:41pm and I haven't had a single snack today. I ate a serving of Special K Vanilla Almond Crunch cereal with 1% milk (wish it were skim, but the stupid store in town doesn't sell it) for breakfast and for lunch I had tuna with mustard & dill pickle relish on whole wheat bread. And I've pretty much drank my weight in water again.

Fingers crossed I keep it up. My husband will be home from work in a little over an hour and I'll be leaving for the gym the second he walks in the door. I can do this!

How'd I do today?

I wish I could say I did a long, awesome, amazing, [insert adjective of choice here] run today. But that would be a big, fat lie! I ran 1.25 miles. I increased my speed by .2, but still, that's a pathetic run. I went for a walk outside too, but I didn't even break a sweat so that hardly counts as exercise.

I did just about drink my weight in water though. That's something else I've been working on. I need to drink less diet soda, so I've been trying to drink water.

Tomorrow I have things all planned out. I'm feeding my daughters sandwiches for dinner so they can eat as soon as my husband gets home and I can go to the gym. When I get home I'll make stir-fry chicken and veggies for us. Then after the girls are in bed I'm going to run. I will make tomorrow a better day! I will dang it!

Oh...and if you've seen my motivation, send it home. I miss it.

Um...yeah...what's up?

I've been feeling a HUGE sense of guilt over weight lately. I guess that's why I haven't posted lately. But really, I guess that means I should've been posting even more.

I still, after more than a month, haven't gotten my running back up to what it was before I left on vacation. I pretty much hate myself for that. I make up LAME excuses too.

I ran 3 miles during part of The Biggest Loser finale (don't get me started on that one...gah!). That's the longest run I've done since I got home. I was running more than 4 miles before we left. *hanging head in shame* I ran a mile tonight. My lame excuse for not running more? I wanted to watch a dvd with my husband and besides I was at the gym earlier. Dumb!

So...tomorrow, I'm hoping I don't give myself a lame excuse and I run more so I can proudly post.

Owie, owie, owie!!!!!

My trainer continues to kick my rear! Laughing, coughing, moving at all...that all hurts! My abs are in agony! Lol! I only have four more sessions with her before we move. Then I'm on my own. She's working with me to have a routine I can do at home with the equipment I have (or will get). So it's all 3, 5 and 10 pounds dumbbells, an exercise ball, a medicine ball and resistance bands (that last one is the only thing I don't have yet). Add my treadmill for cardio and that's all I'll have come May 29th. I'll miss the weight machines, the elliptical and the bikes. But I won't miss paying for a gym membership and a trainer. Money is tight!

I haven't done the Wii Fit in forever. I know, I used to sing it's praises, but for some reason I stopped doing it. So I think I'll be adding that back in once we move.

As for The Biggest Loser...I think they, once again, made a bad decision! Sure, Filipe is a WAY bigger threat than Ron. I get that. BUT...if they had kept Filipe they would've had more motivation to work hard before the finale. I mean seriously, with Ron in the final four I'd have moments thinking, "well...I know I can beat Ron so I'll take it easier today" but with Filipe I'd be like, "gotta get to the gym, gotta beat Filipe." So yeah...way to take the easy way out and send home the guy that deserves to be there. Wussies!!!