A chance at a new start

I stopped writing here, I didn't know what to say. I was pregnant again, but wasn't ready to announce it. Being scared because of the miscarriage in December I didn't want to push myself, so I didn't. But it didn't matter, on Thursday I had another miscarriage.

Physically it was easier on me than last time since I wasn't as far along. Emotionally it still hurts. I'm confused. And I'm not ready to try again for awhile. I just can't take it.

So...

I guess I've been given a chance at a new start as far as fitness goes. I've decided to give the 8 weeks to a half-marathon a shot. I started today...sort of. The first day of it is a rest day, what an anti-climatic start, huh?

I did go walking today, but not as far as I wanted. I walked to the post office to get the mail then over to the store to pick up a few things. But by that time the wind had picked up (we're in the 20-30 mph range at the moment...still) so I had to call my husband to come pick me up, it was just too crazy. But at least it was a little over a mile of walking, better than nothing and definitely better than you're supposed to do on a "rest" day.

But tomorrow...I run.

Derailed by a cold

I'm totally bummed! I haven't exercised since Friday because of a stupid cold!!! My nose is so stuffy and runny and I am so tired and my head is stuck with this sinus headache. Gah!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'll be back, hopefully tomorrow or the next day my nose will decide to stop running so my feet can start running again. ;)

Running the stairs is HARD!!!!

What I wouldn't give for an elliptical trainer right now. Doing stairs for 30 minutes of cross training is HARD!!!!!!! Wow! Heck, I'd rather do a stair stepping machine, even that's easier than doing actual stairs. Dang! Lol!

Today is the "easy" day. This week it really is easy, it's just a mile run. No biggie. But as the weeks go along that amount increases. So I'll be grateful for today and my easy run! :)

I started it...

I couldn't do much for a few days there because I took a trip to Utah with my oldest daughter. It was an early birthday present for her. We went out to a few restaurants, took her to a cupcake cafe and to a cute little play based off the book "If You Give a Mouse a Cookie."

But now I'm home and I've started the 8 weeks to a half-marathon workout. Yesterday I walked 2 miles, ran 1 mile then walked 2 more miles. Today I'm supposed to do 30 (or more) minutes of cross training by doing some other form of cardio. Since I no longer have a gym membership and I only have a treadmill I'll likely be running up and down our stairs. I'm also supposed to do some strength training today.

Basically...we'll see how this goes.

Not doing so well...

WARNING: This post talks about pregnancy (no, I'm not, unfortunately), OB/GYNs and the like. So if you're a squeamish type you might want to stop reading now. And yes lovely husband of mine, it's the kind of stuff you don't like talking about. ;)

Well, my miscarriage was three months ago today. Instead of channeling my anger into something productive by running it off I've more like stopped functioning a lot of the time. My focus is on my daughters and not on myself...seriously, when was the last time I got a hair cut? Put on full makeup? Got dressed in something other than jeans and a hoodie (except for church)?

I'm feeling a dilemma. I want to get pregnant...which totally isn't happening as quickly as I'd like (read: totally frustrated)...but I want to get in shape too. I found a program that helps you run a half-marathon on 8 weeks. It looks totally doable since I can already run and once I get into it I enjoy it. Ahhh...all that free time to think and listen to music as I run...or you know, watch the food channel while I run (whatever, it's torture but I do it). But it's too intense to do while pregnant, so if I got pregnant while doing it I'd be risking another miscarriage, I think.

So...do I stop trying to get preggers for a couple months and focus on the running? Or do I just keep trying for a baby and do the running after?

Sigh...I have an appointment in less than 2 weeks for that dreaded annual visit at the OB/GYN...I think I'm going to talk about it with her.

I found a new form of torture

Last night I ran again, yay! But I did so on the treadmill while watching the Food Network. Seriously, it's a new form of torture seeing all that yummy food while sweating away. Haha!

At least it didn't lead to any snacking afterward...it was 10pm and I didn't eat anything after. Go me! ;)

I ran today!!!!!!

I haven't been doing as well as I'd hoped lately. I missed a few days of walking in there either because of illness, weather or my husband's crazy work schedule.

But I'm trying and today I both ran on the treadmill at home AND took a walk outside. :)