617 Calories

That's how many calories I burned today according to the elliptical trainer at the gym. I really don't know how accurate that is, but I was sweaty and tired so I know I worked hard. But I don't feel all that great about it.

I should.

I used to feel great after a workout. But now...I don't feel like it's enough.

Maybe it's because I have more to lose than I ever have before. There were times I thought I had a ton to lose, but in retrospect I didn't have all that much to lose.

I know I can't expect overnight results. This will take some time. But dang it...I want to at least feel good about what I'm doing...and I don't.